Letting you die was the best thing I could do. I celebrate today that you are so far gone, you stuck with me so long I forgot to distinguish who was who.
You haunted my soul for years, always felt like my albatross. Don’t you think it was time to let you go? I grew up always thinking you were stronger than I was and am. Your words poisoned my insides as a snake pours venom to its victim. I was your victim.
I celebrate today, that I am a new person, that although flawed, can breathe at full capacity. I feel as light as a feather, although you always made me think this would be impossible. Did we have good times? I honestly don’t know, you pulled me down every time I tried to crawl to the surface.
Let me rejoice, that little version of me is so far gone. I told myself you had to be out of my life, be gone and never come back.
I see this bright smile today being reflected on the mirror. I no longer feel “too fat”, “too tan”, “too tall”, or “too weak”. I have a lovely shape, my skin color is beautiful, my height is perfect, and my soul is the one of a strong viking.
I smile today for your death, there is nothing to grief about, but to celebrate the woman I always was and because of you I couldn’t see. So long, “friend”.