Honestly, it felt weird to continue throwing it all out there. It hasn’t been fulfilling to try and keep up with everyone else when I can’t even keep up with my own thoughts. In a way, it all has deteriorated my mental state, which is why I’ve gone “m.i.a.” the last few weeks. (I know you know what I mean.)
Hundreds of “friends” have been erased, blocked, and unfollowed. Memories in pictures have been permanently removed. Instant moments have stopped being posted frequently. Tweets and retweets have decreased even more. A lack of words, comments, replies, and “maintenance” has been going on here as well.
I’d be lying if I said creativity has not been lacking. Unwanted thoughts overflow my head constantly, yet I still try hard to function. It sounds so depressing, but in a way it’s just reality at this moment.
It’s not as depressing as it sounds, company and optimism exists and is with me. I’m so thankful to know I have this. I hope things go well. I also hope I can fully retake the things that bring genuine joy to me and that I can drop that “partly m.i.a” status soon.